I'm doing something scary and unthinkable

In just 12 short days I will be doing something horrific. I will be attending my ex-boyfriend's wedding reception.

Why, you ask? Because we're all in the same circle of friends (I emphasize this because I actually hate all those stupid bitches but am forced to be civil as my husband is best friends with all their significant others). I actually met my husband through my ex as DH is one of my ex's best friends. Yes, we do have awkward group get togethers on a semi-regular basis. Yes, I do freak about how I look anytime I see my ex even though I've been married to the love of my life for FOUR years. Nothing sends a better fuck you positive image than just being beautiful and happy around someone you hate you parted unpleasantly with and who eye-witnessed your complete loss of dignity and composure while you totally lost your shit on the front porch of his parents house  your disgrace.

So, this is probably obvious, but now I have just 12 days to lose as much weight as humanly possible and buy the classiest (yet totally sexy and ultimately incredibly flattering) dress. I feel like a stereotype saying that but I'm sure that stereotype exists for a reason! It has to be normal to feel this way.

I know that dietary changes are what's needed most to lose weight, but I'm also going to try and get to the gym more than just once in a blue moon. I need to make some positive health changes and this wedding celebration (gag) is the immediate motivation I need to start.

I hope by blogging about what I've been doing to lose the weight and get to the gym more regularly I'll hold myself more accountable for my results.



















As for some stats, I'm at 152lbs and I'm 5'9". I hope that I can lose at least 4lbs in the next 12 days but my REAL goal is 139lbs. It's gonna take some work!


Here's to a fresh start!

You gotta start somewhere, right?